Addiction, Depression Or Both

Reena’s Exploration Challenge #129

EXPLORATION PROMPT 129

I invite you to explore either one or both of the following themes in your piece

1. Addiction
2. Depression

My face was distorted like a fish out of water, gulping for air.

At last, came a big procession of aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaachho! I thought my lungs will burst out and eyes will pop out. 

There was a slight fever so I had to take leave from the office for a few days.

To my surprise, everyone, except the sufferer, knew the remedy for it.

Came advice from friends, neighbors, and colleagues.

One thing was common they all came up with the herbal tea.

Ginger, pepper, Tulsi/Basil leaves tea, make a good concoction, add some milk and honey and drink several times.

Does it work?

No.

But I suffered from acidity and burning sensation in the food pipe.

I had not heard of black tea or green tea at that time.

After all sorts of treatments condition became worst.

It was a furious allergic reaction to something which they couldn’t understand and prescribed some anti-allergy pill. It worked but became a habit.

Nowadays there are so many types of tea are.

I have tried all. From chamomile, lemon, ginger, Hibiscus, and many more varieties.

My favorite is lemongrass with little lemon juice, mint and honey. I start my day with lemon tea. In the evening it is milk tea. 

Now Tea has become an addiction. 

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Fourteen more days to go off 21 Days Lockdown.

I found yesterday evening that I am left with only2 sleeping pills. I think I am becoming addicted to it in spite of all breathing and yoga practice. I suffer from insomnia. My own making. It’s silent and peaceful at night so I always preferred to do work at night then it became a habit. Never thought of the importance of sleep in life. The body never forgives you if you abuse it in any way. So bear it as a punishment but sometimes succumb to the pressure, take a sleeping pill. Initially, its effect was positive. I felt fresh in the morning but as days passed it became a habit and then one pill was not enough. It brings depression also.

Our mind is really a menacing brut if you don’t know how to handle it.

Not fighting with it. It will try to overpower you.

Yesterday night I didn’t take any and night was all dreams, weird and amusing too.

I felt as if I am drugged. In the morning brain seems a little foggy.

Covid19 or Lockdown or social distancing has nothing to do with it. Helping hand is not coming. House hols chores are a bit too much at this age but as I enjoy work its not a very big problem. We have to go out for daily needs. Managing somehow. Like everyone else. We all are into it. Thankfully all are connected with the internet and phones. So far so good.

This too will pass.

I hope it will make me get rid of sleeping pills and depression.