My spiritual guru’s voice was ringing in my head as I started climbing the stairs.
‘Each step will take you to the eternal light. Don’t look back. Surrender and you will attain enlightenment and salvation’
I thought it easy as I had nothing to lose except this sickly body which has given me nothing but miseries.
I was about to take the plunge when fear of surrendering to unknown grasped me.
Back there was at least a world of known hell of addictive miseries. Whereas here was surrendering to unknown about which I was not sure.
I retreated to my hell.